kuthu

vazhkkai

2005-07-27T10:32:00.000-05:00

நான் வாழ்வது வருடங்களில் அல்ல....நிமிடங்களில்
ஆம்...உன்னோடு பேசும் அந்த நிமிடங்களில்..

Thanglish...

naan vazhuvadhu varudangalis aalla..nimidangalil
aam..unnodu paesum adha nimidangalil...

Translation...tried

i live not in years..but in minutes
yes..the minutes i speak with you..

Indru!!...today

2005-07-22T20:26:00.000-05:00

Dear all..i am sorry..the following is kind of late..i was waiting for the day but missed it!!!

ஒவ்வொரு மாதமும் வரும் உன் பிறந்த நாள்!!!
பெளர்ணமி...

Thanglish

ovovru mathamum varum un pirandha naal!!!
Powranami..

translation..tried

ur birthday that comes every month..
full moon day!!!

kavithai..poem

2005-07-15T15:41:00.000-05:00

மற்றவர் எழுதுவார் கவிதை...உனக்காக...
எனக்கோ நீயே கவிதை...

Thanglish

mattravar yezhudhuvar kavithai..unnakkaga
yaennakko neeyae kavithai!!!

Translation....tried

others write poem..for you
for me..u're a poetry by urself!!!

SOS: i am not convinced with the translation....dear people..ur suggestions needed....

ருசி...taste!!!

2005-07-13T12:10:00.000-05:00

உன்னை முத்தமிட்டேன்..
தேன் கசந்தது...

Thanglish..

unnai muthamittaen..
thaen kasanthathu....

Translation...tried

I kissed you..
honey tasted bitter..

Kaaranam....reason

2005-07-10T15:27:00.000-05:00

Dear all..i am sorry for this long gap..somehow i was losing the motivation..i did not know y..but i was losing it!!!

but....here..i am back again!!

virumandi!!!

புகை பிடிப்பதை விட போகிறேன்
உன்னை 'பிடித்த' காரணத்தால்!!

thanglish

pugai pidipathai vida pogiraen
unnai piditha karanathal

tranlation..tried

Itz hard...i am afraid..the punch would be off..suggestions..please

இதயம்!!!

2005-06-30T13:49:00.000-05:00

உன்னை கண்டால்..என் இதயம்
துடிக்க மட்டும் அல்ல..ஆடவும் செய்கிறது!!

Thanglish

unnai kandal..yen idhayam
thuddikka mattum alla..aadavum seikeerathu!!!

Translation..tried

when i see u..my heart
not only beats fast..it dances too!!

மேகம்..cloud

2005-06-25T23:31:00.000-05:00

இடி..மின்னல்
மேகங்கள் உன்னை காண சண்டை போடுகின்றனவோ!!!??

Thanglish

yiddi..minnal
maegangal unnai kaana sandai podukinranavoo!!!??

Translation....tried

thunder...lightining
is the clouds are fighting to see you??

மறைந்து..hidden

2005-06-23T23:17:00.000-05:00

பிறை நிலா...
ஓளிந்து கொண்டு எட்டி பார்கிறது..உனது அழகை

Thanglish

pirai nila
olinthu kondu yaeti parkeerathu..unathu azhakai

Translation..tried

waxing moon..
proping from hiding to see your beauty ..

muthukkal..pearls

2005-06-21T15:32:00.000-05:00

மழை..முத்துக்கள்
உன் வாயினில் நீ பதுக்கி வைத்திருகிறாய்..பற்களாக!!

thanglish

mazhai..muthakkal
un vayinil nee padhikki vaithiruirrukeerai..parrkallaga

Translation...tried

rain..pearls
u have kept them hidden in your mouth..as teeth!!!

interval...intermission..இடைவேளை

2005-06-09T23:17:00.000-05:00

மக்களே..எனக்கு qualifiers..அதனால் நான் என் வாலை சுருட்டி கொண்டு படிக்க போகிறேன்..அனைவரையும் June 17 சந்திக்கிறேன்!!!!

வாழ்க..வளர்க..ஓங்குக..

Thanglish

makkalae..yaenakku qualifiers..aadhanal naan yen vaalai suritti kondu padikka
pogiraen...anaivaraiyum June 17 sandhikkeeraen

vazhga, valarga..oonguga

Translation..tried

People, i am having qualifiers from monday..so i am going stop wagging my tail and study..see u all by June 17th!!!

விருமாண்டி
virumandi

Poramai..from previsous post

2005-06-08T13:52:00.000-05:00

என் இதயம் பொறாமையினால் இரத்தம் கக்குகிறது
தற்சமையம் நீ என் கண்களுக்குள் இருக்கிறாய் என்று!!

Thanglish

yen idhayam poramaiyinal ratham kakkukeerathu
tharsamaiyam nee yen kangalukkul irrukeerai yeandru

Translation..tried

my heart is spewing blood in jealousy
'cos you're in my eyes, at present !!!

poraamai!!

2005-06-07T15:51:00.000-05:00

கண்களூக்கு என் இதயத்தின் மீது பொறாமை
நீ அதன் அருகில் இருக்கிறாய் என்று!!

Thanglish

kangalukku yen idhayathin meedhu poramai
nee adharkku pakkathil irukeerai yendru!!!

Translation...tried

my eyes are jealous of my heart
'cos u're close to my heart!!

தமிழ்....

2005-06-06T14:21:00.000-05:00

அமுதிற்கு...சர்க்கரை
உனக்காக நான் தமிழில் எழுதும் முதல் இரு வரிகள்

Thanglish

amudhirkku...sarkkarai
unnakaga naan thamizhil ezhudhum muhdal iru varigal

translation...tried

for nectar..sugar
the first two lines i write in Tamizh for you

iru..varigal..two lines

2005-06-03T00:31:00.000-05:00

unakaga naan ezhudhum iru varigal
ennakku Thirukural

translation...tried

the two lines i write for u
for me..thirukural

azhukku!!

2005-06-02T20:19:00.000-05:00

ennakku arasiyalvadhiyin veetil vannan vaelai
nalla vaelai!!

translation...tried

i got a job of a dhobi in politician's house
good job!!!

kadavul...God

2005-06-01T02:54:00.000-05:00

ippothellam kovillukku pogiraen..
nee irrukeerai enndrargal!!!

translation..tried

I go to temple nowadays
they said u're there!!!

kadhaal..luv

2005-05-29T22:07:00.000-05:00

Naan kandupidithaen - Avalukku en meedhu kaathal !
Aval - naan aval vazhi meedhu vaitha vizhikagalai pathiramaaga eduthu vandhapodhu!!!

translation...tried

i found...she loves me
when..she got my eyes carefully that i had kept on her path!!!

maradhi!!!..forgetfullness

2005-05-28T11:10:00.000-05:00

naan unnai marappaen
naan ennai marandhapodhu!!!

translation..tried

i'll forget u
when i forget myself!!!

unnal!!!

2005-05-26T21:53:00.000-05:00

ennakku swargam verum vaarthaithaan
unnai paarkum vaarai!!!

translation..tried

paradise was just a word
until i met u!!!

p.s: this one, i first thought in english and then tried translating it to tamil..i could not get exact or perfect word for paradise!!!!!

chinnam!!!

2005-05-25T11:15:00.000-05:00

naan unnai marandhalum
en naenchu marakadhu...pachaikuthapattuirrukeerai!!!

translation...tried

Even if i forget you
my chest will not...u're tattooed!!

dialogues!!

2005-05-25T01:15:00.000-05:00

two of my favourite dialogues

Nayakan - 'nee nallavana..kaetavana'

Hey Ram - 'kolai kutram endral..porum kutramthaanae'

translation....tried

Nayakan - r u good...or bad (sorry translation took the punch of the dialogue)

Hey ram - if murder is sin..then war is also

enga...Apparu!!

2005-05-24T22:05:00.000-05:00

hi

enga apparu..oru nattamai..okka makka enna periya mesai kedaiyathu..and ofcourse..thalayil mudiyum kedaiyadhu!!! avaru engalai..adhavudhu..ennai, en annaanai..kalaiparu.. unga veetu..enga veetu kalai ellai..ulga maga kalai..

naanga chinna vayasula..tambaram sanatoriumla irundhom..appo..oru chinna village. kuk gramam..(sila chennai vasikal..ippokuda adhai gramam nnu thaan sollaranga)..andha kalathula..ellaraiyum ellarukkum theriyum..naan.eppo endha mammi veetla maanga theerudinaen..eppo kannadi janalaai udaichaen..appuram..naan chinna vayasulaiya..ayokiyana..adhanala..naan panara ellam ayokiyathananum avaruku therijudum..appuram enna..annikku night..ennakku..illai..ennakaga enn annankku adi..
naan..mudichivikki..adhanalla eppiddiyo thappichichuvaen..

best part..haircut pannikka podhuthaan..nanum enn annanum..savara kadaikku poi..orae style panni..engalakku style cutthaan (step cut...andha kalathula romba famous) solli..utakaruvom..aana ella dhabavum..cut mudikum podhu..madaiyil pachai theriyara madhi..andha barber adichirupan..saeri..enna pannarathu naanga rendu paerum soggama nadandhu varuvom..aathukku (veetukku) vandhu paartha..en appa..vetri kalipula utkarthu kappi kudichundu irrupar..enna nnu kaeta..avaru matterai puttu puttu vaiparu

enna matter na..naanga eppo haircut pannika ponalum. avaru engalai follow panni vanthu..naanga andha savara naarkaliyil uutkaratha appuram..engal pinnadi vanthu...madayil pachai theriyeera madithiri adika sollidu varam..okka makka..seariyana kuchumbu pudicha thalaivar!!!! naangalum enga barber shoppai matthithundae irrupoam..anna ella tharaiyum..avaruthann...jayeepaar!!!!

viru

kanavu!!!!...dream

2005-05-23T10:02:00.000-05:00

unnai naan kandikka pogiraen...
kanavil oru naalaavadhu varamal irruka!!!

translation...tried

i am going to warn u..
not to come in my dreams atleast for one day!!!

Paravasam

2005-05-23T09:43:00.000-05:00

kaan munn vandhaal....
enn idhayathilrundhu!!!

translation....tried

she came in front of my eyes...
from my heart!!!

kathaal....tharrkolai

2005-05-22T23:12:00.000-05:00

kathaal..tharrkolai...
oru nimidam saeyum thiruvilaiyaadal!!!!

translation...tried

love...suicide
game played by one minute

pattampoochi.....oru naal

2005-05-19T19:04:00.000-05:00

kannal paeseenal aval
vaarthaikalaal paeseenaen naan...tholaipaeseeyil
illai endral aval
andru vai adaithu ponavan!!!

viru

end....is it possible???

2005-05-19T09:53:00.000-05:00

Well, in this, i intend to conclude my love story of the college days...but though i would finish the story..it is not possible to completely erase it from my mind!!!!

So, my amma told that somebody in my appa's office had made a bet with my father that i would run with a female before i finish off the college..and that too not from my caste (i hate it!!!)..and the bet was 100 ruppees. Me, who generally does not like to lose a bet..did not want my appa to lose the bet..simple right..but to think of it now..i was stupid!!!

This made me not to tell my liking to my female..but though i did not tell her anything, i cannot stop seeing her. Believe me, to know that somebody whom u like also likes you, is something really blissful, and to be in a position where u cannot go ahead, is something which u would'nt want even ur enemy to experience!!!! it is hell!!! yeah, my hell continued for rest of my college days..till she left!! On the day, when our batch gave farewell to her batch, lotsa friends told me to tell her atleast then, but i did not do anything..i was busy hitting the last nail into love coffin!!!!

Then, she gave me one more chance..like when she was about to get married, and when she gave out invitations..she had told one of her friends to inform me..man..i was so caught up with this 'losing a bet' thing..i did not do anything..so she got married!!!

But..now, when i think of those days, i feel how awful i had been and how i had missed my boat to be with my love!!! my life changed quite a lot after that..but i always think of her..and whenever i am too down..i see her photos..soothens my mind!!! Though i will not ever erase her from my mind, just to have a vicarious feeling of being with her for some moments, i keep her name as the password to all of my accounts..be it email, bank or anything!!!!

oh..did i say that i have never talked to her even once!!!!

sorry, i finished this very abruptly..

viru

simmering hope!!!

2005-05-09T12:26:00.000-05:00

I used go to the college on all days, there was no holidays for me, I was not that sincere or studious, i go to college just to grab a glimpse of her..after that i go anywhere i want!!!

My mom, thinking that her son is really studious, would prepare lunch everyday..she never complained about me, going to college on sundays too and making her to prepare lunch for me!!! those were the days, sometimes i would be the only guy from my class on holidays..people thought that i am crazy and weird...but they did not know how much it meant to me..

After i too started going to wards, i had people everywhere to inform me about her whereabouts..once i come to know about her, i would sneak out of the ward and go to her ward and be there till the ward hours get over!!!! sometimes i used to think..am i harassing her? (which in a way, was)..but i could not control myself..if she is there somewhere, i had to see her!!! no complications!!!! To satisfy myself, i wanted to know whether she has even a single percent of liking towards me..i called one of her friend and told to her..'if my female wears a salwar, it would suit her really well' (i know that this friend would pass on the message)..by the way, my female never have worn salwar to college, only sarees!!!

Next day, as usual, i was in the canteen for her arrival (actually i had forgotten about this salwar itself..as i had very little expectation)..but 15 minutes before my female came to the college, this friend of her, came running to the canteen, and hit me on my backhead (with love) and told 'what have u done to my friend..see she is wearing salwar..and that too a new one, bought just last night'..man, i could not believe myself and my heart was skipping beats..rather i should say, pounding inside my chest..for the first time..something is happening to my life..(wow, even as i type this..i feel my heart starting to pound)then she came, in a salwar..it was kind of yellowish with green border..she was awesome..i could not take my eyes of her!!! she just saw me and pushed off!!!! though i was sitting there at the canteen, my soul was actually going with her!!!!

I was so happy that whole day..and even went and attended class with her batch (with my senior batch...can u believe it?) and kept seeing her the whole day!!! the day came to an end, i did not want to go home at all..i just wanted to talk with her and be with her....alas, i had to go. I went home, very happy..my mom saw me..and she sensed something..but did not ask..my pop came back from office..and told my mom something..then she told me about that...that...changed the course of life and that changed course..i took..i still regret....I can't take it anymore..i plan to conclude this in my next blog!!!

viru

first sight!!

2005-05-05T12:13:00.000-05:00

She saw me and asked me to say what i was asked to say to her..but i was kind of mesmerised on seeing her..not a single word came from my mouth..and i was thinking about the guy who sent me..and said to myself that 'senior..i am sorry..i am going to take her'..yeah i meant it..it was love (luv) at the very first sight. You know what i told her..'u look very beautiful' but i meant it literally and was true to my heart..generally senior females, they tend to rag us back..if say something of this sort, but by the way my face (pathetic, actually) became after seeing her, she understood that i am behind her..so she just laughed and said 'thanks'..that was enough for me to proceed.

Then came my investigative operandi..i got her time table, yeah, all the time she was in college, i know her time table well, probably better than her, and definitely better than my time table. i know where her lectures were..etc.,

Our college has a canteen right on the way that leads to the ward (clinical ward, yeah, beings to become doctors..we were forced to go to clinics everyday) my favorite place was that, i sit on the steps and wait for her to come..this happenend everyday of my life at the college..only after seeing her i go to my class..she generally come around five to ten minutes late..and so i too end up to the classes ten minutes late. Those were the best times of my life..i used to just wait for her..just to see her..seeing her made my day. Not only in the morning..somehow, my year and her year had the same lunch timing..so after my classes are over, i just come running to the canteen, and wait on the canteen steps just to see her!!! my friends used to laugh at me for this...but i did not care..for me it is just her and me!!! oblivious of the other people and the world!!! this went on every day.. so my friends gave the canteen steps, a name - 'TAJMAHAL' steps..and ofcourse, this is among my friends!!!

Funny part is, as the days past by into years, whole of my batch and my seniors all became aware of my attractions towards her..and but it was just matter of days for her to find out..but being INDIA, she was feeling very bad..that a junior male is behind her..this was informed to me by my classmate, she (my class mate) said that my female is feeling very hurt and expressed her feeling to her. I was happy that she did not hate me, but was just feeling bad about this age thing..but for me..age was never a concern (even now)!!!!

I was a great friend of all her friend and her classmates, if some guy from her batch sees her..he would be promptly informed that she is my girl..

One fine day...i came to know that she also likes me!!!!! That day was September 20 2002!!!!! still etched in my mind (heart) as if happened yesterday!!!

to be continued

virumandi

Love (luv)

2005-04-28T13:42:00.000-05:00

hi

well, my last blog was some sort of 'A' certified..not because contents were bad...but was because of the fact that it would be perceived as bad!!!!! but it was not the only things that happened in my life at the college..i had the pleasure of experiencing other things also..that includes or rather should i say it comprised only of love (luv). it all started when i was being ragged..and as usual i was asked to lot of horrible stuff (but i enjoyed it)..of that, one was to ask females, what soap do they use for their beauty? what deo they use for them to smell so bad?? from which shop do they buy rice? all these stuff...aana naan yoseechadhu undu..yaaravadhu senior ennai poi oru poonukittae 'yei nee romba azhaga irruakku' nnu solla vaikamaatangalunnu..naanum adhu nadakkum nadakkumnnu wait pannidae irrundhaen...andha naal vandhadhu..

one day when i was being severely ragged.. and was on the verge of crying...but this guy came in and said..'dai avanai vudungada..anga enn figure varudhu..enakku oru vaelai avan pannattum'..i think that guy had some say among his classmates..so they left me..but reserved their torture for future usage...appuram enna andha senior ennai kuppittu..'makka, nee poi andha ponnu kittae, nee romba azhaga irrukaennu solluttu vaa..' naanum idhu enna paeriya vaelaiyannu sollittu andha senior ponnai nokki ponaen..she was going in the front..she was wearing..umm saree..that too my favourite colour...grey...i just loved it...but i still have not seen her in the front..so i strolled fast to catch up with her..idharkku idaiyil..namma senior..O..seekarum poda..vandhaennna movanae sethae nee... that encouragment made me to move much faster...

she was with her friends...talking..turning..i was able to get a glimpse of her face...from side..enn manasu..sollaran..macchi..super figura irrukkum pola irrukku..naan udanae..adangu..adangu...senior ponnu..makkal konnuruvagiyae...(appo ennakku oru 19 vayasu irrukkum..poona parka kuda illa, adhukkulla naanum, en manasum oru chinna conversation arampichuruchu...manasae...manasae).yeah, she was looking good from side...my expectation went really high..my feet gave some company to my racing mind..naan aval munadi poi ninaen..apponnu paarthu aval saruppai saeri saiya kuniya..naan saethu ponaen...ennada idhu..oru poolan devi pola..endhuvodane saeruppai kazhataara!!! violent female pola!!!

idhukulla..avaloda friends ellam..ennai 'yai enna ragginga....nee yaaru..un paer enna''ippiddi pala questions..naan padhil sollalae...yaenna..senior utharavu..talk only to that female..so naan, kunicha aval ennai paarpallnnu aavalaai irrundaen....idhurrkkulla..annaiku friday..so aval thalaiyil malli poo vachu irundha (grey saree...malli poo...virumandi..unnakku luck da)..en expectation appo everest malae..kodi katti parandhadhu...aval paarthal....ennai yaaro ambala kuthina mari irrundhadhu!!! enna kannu..(kangal....ennakku piditha pagam) ..nemirthal...enna paarthu oru namitthu seeruppu seerchu.. umm sollu..avan enna solla soonan...sollu....naan angae oru kallu mari irundaen..yenna sollaradhunae theriyilae!!! (ennakku mattum appo courage irundhurdha..avalai..thukki irrupaen) ..ba bannu vai kularachi!!!!!

thodarum enn kadhal sarithiram...manasu romba freeya irrukku...mugam theriyadha makkal kitta sollum podhu!!!

virumandi

'A' certified!!!

2005-04-25T20:33:00.000-05:00

hi all

the course i studied is for gruelling 5 years, and somehow, with nobody knowing why..it generally goes for 6 years...yes, we spend a major chunk of our lives!!!! well, towards end of our course..two very good things happen one is All India tour and the other is internship. the internship for our batch was very good..v had 45 days of village tours, 45 days in a college and 90 days at a farm in Hosur..which is where lot of spicy things happen and forgotten.

In the farm, we had our own mess..literally, with no interference from professors, the food was always awesome. The incidence i am going to say happened during one of those dinners. as usual, we guys all played very competitive cricket after a very sumptous tiffin and coffee!!! and was really hungry to have the dinner. We served rice, some nonveg item, two veg items, sambar, rasam and the usual thayir!!! (curd). this was followed by some dessert, milk and banana!!!! well one day..the electricity was at its best....u know what i mean, even then, we did not care..we went ahead with our dinner plans in the mess.

our gang of many members went into the mess..shouting all kinds of bad words oblivious of the fact that females also would be there. okka makka, naanga yaaru paeriya pissthu kkal aachae!!!! enga attakaasam thaangamae nearaiya ponnunga sadaikku vara...naanga enga vaalai surittu kondu kottikka vutkandhom!!!

sapida podu pura engallukkum pengalkkum orae vaakkuvadham!!! idaiyala current vaerae poi poi kazhutha aruthudhu!!! oru vazhiya saptu mudichu.. paal kudikka vandhom!!!

naan-O.....indha current kalaikkudhu

en friends - aama da..om..ma...indha electricity board kku current vaikkanum

ippidiyae paesikkinu irrundhapo,,current varra!!! nanga kujal aanom... one of my friend andha days la hindi kathukkknnu irundan (en college pakkthula oru jain college irrukku, andha jain figurelai madakka, en friend edhutha pala muyarchikalil indhvum ondru). andhanalla avan appo appo hindi engal uyirai vanguvaan!!!

ippiddi avan hindiyil paesikondu.. avan pakkathil irundha cup laerdha paalai kudichutaan...undanae orae satham...oru ponnu..'andhu ennoda paalu'

en friend- yae tumara dhoodh nahin...gai ka dhoodh.......

nalla vaelai..appo nnu paarthu current poga....naanga ellarum andha scene laerdhu disappear!!! current vandhu paartha..namma hindi friend mattum messla......thiru thiru nnu muzhichukkituttu irundhan!!!!

vaarta!!!

viru

ragging!!!!

2005-04-22T08:40:00.000-05:00

hi all

i used to be one of those notorious seniors who do not leave anybody without ragging..that too girls..i rag one by one everyday..they were good time pass for me during lunch time!!! But this is dangerous too, if u go offlimit u are gone...i generally go offlimit and have always got away from the consequences..

naanum en friendum oru thaba oru poonai ragging pannikkittu irundhom..by the way this friend of mine is known for his edhukai monai talk...andhu ponnu orae scene vutukinnu irundichu..saeri indhu saeri pattu varadhu solli, andha ponnai kazhati vidalammnnu..

naan - va tea sapida polam

ponnu - ennakkku tea ellam kudichu pazakkam illai

en friend - pazakkam illai na pazaka padhi ko...va va

tea kadayil...naan, en friend tea order panna...last tharavaiya andha ponnai enna manasai mathikinaiya...tea ya coffeya...undanae andha ponnu..engalai meter podalamnnu nenaichu...ennakku cool drinks vaenum nnu sollichu

naangae - okka makka engalakkae metera!!!

naangae kadalai podaratha matha pasanga ellam...dai, dai, macchi,,,,intro da, intro da!!! ivinga thollai thangala...naagalae endho slighta kadalai podaroam...

ponnu - ennakku cool drinks thaan vaenum

naan - tho paaru.. tea, coffee, biscuit illaina porai....enga menula ivalavuthaan!!!!!

en endhukai monai friend - saeri saeri....unnakku murkkku vaenuma

poonu - no

en friend (andha ponnu englishla answer pannathum..orae kobam, ennakkum english theriyumulae) - ok, u want one muruk.....

ponnu - no

en friend - or else one ammuk!!! (avaru orae rhythmic kka paesararam)

idha kaetathum..naan S.V. sekhar varumae oru sound "ting" for people to disappear...adhu madhiri..naan angaeirundhu ting!!!

me processed!!!

2005-04-18T08:58:00.000-05:00

hi guys

well, i am back..first of all i did not go anywhere to be back, i was just..as required by me, was processing myself and now i am in a better position to explain myself..but the words that has to be used seems more confusing..so i am going stay away from this topic of explaining myself and knowing myself..

i think itz been more than a month i wrote a blog, yeah, i was kind of busy writing a paper and now i am free, though not completely, but i am. My boss pushed me to finish an article in a short period, and at the start i was really apprehensive about this whole affair of writing a scientific article, but as time went past, i was able to not only finish it but also get some good comments to feed my ego!!!!

in the last few weeks, i had been through lot of things and they range from maniacal ectasy to maniacal depression. yeah, though my friends don't know a thing about this, i was going through these two extremes. i really don't know whether i can write these things, but i need a let out. i have (had) a close circle of friends, and one of my friend went off to some other state for a job and came in for a weekend some time back, i tried my best to be with him for the whole stay..but one lunch..i had to miss 'cos of some other committment..that started everything..he again come in two weeks back, and i was not even informed about that and also the most funny part was i was left out of his birth day party!!! the word funny do not carry the literal meaning!!! what really caught me was the way these kids played with me!!!! and being a guy with tons and tons of ego..i could not bring myself to talk or do anything with this circle any more!!! actually now i am withdrawing myself from this gang..believe me it is very tough!!!

ok people, i think this is it for the time being..it had been really great for me....and now i feel kind of light!!!

viru

me..processing

2005-03-10T18:18:00.000-05:00

Me..

well, after I wrote the previous blog, I was just thinking about the thoughts that I had written..it was weird and ofcourse..made me to inquire..what is it that stopping me to unravel myself? Before I did that, I just talked with some of my friends about this and asked them to explain about themselves in words, they could not do it…but when asked about do the same about other people, they were flowing..why is this? R v, human beings, good in giving opinions and judging others, rather than oneself. Ok, this led me to see what is this thing of ‘knowing oneself’ mean.. and as usual I got many hits in the form of many different phiolosophies..so leading to even more confused state of mine. Wow, this mind boggling, ‘cos when I was ignorant of this thing, I was happy and when I start digging towards the point of knowing me..i am confused!!! Is this why the saying ‘ignorance is bliss’ exists?????

virumandi

me....

2005-03-05T14:42:00.000-05:00

me?..what to write about me...actually nothing..i could not think of anything about me..is it pathetic or inability? what to think. i have used around 31 years of my existence and yet i could not write anything about me. i think thatz ‘cos i have not tried to know me completely..and i am also apprehensive to do that..will the efforts of knowing me completely throw up new things about me for which i am not ready or which i cannot take? well, being a person who likes to take the life as it unfolds i prefer to be ignorant of my own being so my being can bring forth news things about me as and when the situation arises!!! i really don’t know if it is ok to write this topic off like that..but what to do, this issue is very complicating and mind boggling..should i say scarry….

me….to be continued

mudhal mudhalai!!!

2005-03-03T14:42:00.000-05:00

hi

umm, mudhal mudhalai...how did i came up with this word!! i really dont know, yeap, if i would have known, then it is not mudhal mudhalai(mm)..like this, lot of things that occurs in our is mm..spontaneous..and it is always beautiful, spontaneity is the essense of our being.without that the life becomes boring. Whatever is done mm, it always stays in our mind, mm kadhal, mm mutham, mm adi, mm fail, mm class first etc... they are always sweet and nobody wants to erase them from their mind!!!

MM sonna vaarthai, though we wont know about it, our parents/elders would know it and they always keep saying it. MM gives the opportunity to express our true inner being, without any contamination from world thinkings, world judgements..but if u just dont say it..and try to ruminate on it, then all of us would put in things that would please the world, our friends etc., thatz y whatever a baby/child says is always sweet, 'cos they are not contaminated with anything..they are pure and pristine.

yep, lotz can be told about mm, but let wind up!!!

virumandi